Wasting Energy

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“When people start to get tired while working, & become more quiet, sometimes they just think, ‘Talk is a Wasting Energy’.”

 

When fatigue are unavoidable but work are still much, some of people will try to distract themselves with something that interest them, but there are also some who still focus on their work, shut their own mouth to safe their energy & work quietly.

Bunny Diary Chapter 03; Silence Words (Boy)

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Bunny Diary Chapter 03; Silence Words (Boy)

 

Can I ask you something, how did you seeing this world? From which edge you seeing it, or even how you seen our sky up above? Are you seeing it as it is or as an endless sky & realize just how small you are, in this world. How a single weakness can determine your entire life? What is the purpose of life when you just focus on a single weakness?

 

I think that is too much question already but, every question keep me wonder how each perspective people have. None of us have the same perspective over everything, it pretty simple to make other understand if we had this kind of thing.

 

A single weakness make us different, a single mistake make us being judge, but none of us is perfect neither. What give them the right to judge people, when some people don’t look at themselves beforehand.

 

But whether they are normal or less, people always have interesting way to make their decision & that’s the more reason why I like to observe them.

 

Whether they giving up or keep trying till the end. Every choice they make only lead to one future yet, there are so many possibilities to how it actually ended. That part alone, was the interesting part, keeping people to wonder how the future will lead them.

 

Previous chapter, inside Classroom 2-A.

As I stared at the sunset from the window,

(The Sunset is beautiful, it so calm after finishing all this paper. I wonder what time now,) – I thought while checking the time,

(17:30!!! What the? All homework is done but all this paper from the teacher is making me this late, hope there is still teacher in Staffroom.) – I thought as I put all papers together in hurry & walk to the door fast,

(Again, why I’m the only one who got this, I’m not the only Class Rep, though. Better fast.) – I thought as complain.

 

But something unexpected is happened, as I opened the door in hurry,

*Bump*

“Ouch, ouch, ouch.” – she said while feeling pain.

(What happen? Did I bump to someone?) – I thought with scratching my head.

“Hhhmmm, what I hitting on?” – confused.

(A girl voice?) – surprised.

“Ah, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to, I will help you to compile the book.” – she said with compile my book.

As I open my eyes, I see a girl with a long hair helping compile the book,

(Who is that girl? Well, it doesn’t matter as long as she helped too.) – I thought as I also helping to compile my own book.

View second later, she suddenly ask,

“Uhhmmm I’m sorry, are you by any chance Panda?” – she ask timidly.

As I respond to her question by looking back at her,

(Panda? Ah she knows from those manuscripts, is she from Drama Club? Don’t tell me Sheila send her here. Not again.) – I thought with cold sweat.

“Ah, I’m talking about these manuscripts you know. How did you have these? Are you playing as Panda, three month ago?” – she said trying to explain & remind me.

(As I though, she is from Drama Club. But, as I can remember correctly none of them can use ‘Sign Language’ except Sheila & Paola.) – I thought as I looking for something to write.

“Hallo, are you listening to me?” – she said while waving her hand in front of me.

(Arg, I need to answer her, but where is my notepad, anyway? Or at least something to write with.) – I thought as I still looking for pen or pencil.

She already lost her patience,

“Hay, don’t ignoring me, I’m talking to you! Hallo, earth to Panda, Earth to Panda.”

(Yeah, yeah, I know. But I need to find my notepad first, where is this guy anyway?) – I thought with little bit panic.

She raise her voice little bit,

“Seriously, can you even say a single word? Halloooo, I’m talking to you! Are you a Deaf?”

(Heee, so she mad at me, huh? Ah there it is, better take a pen & write something for her.) – I thought little bit surprised by her.

 

As I found my pen, I start to write something on my notepad, & give her a notepad that saying,

[I’m sorry, I’m not Deaf. I’m Mute.]

“……” – with silent she look surprised reading my note.

[But I’m figuring out that you don’t know sign language, so I don’t how to answer you.]

“……”

[You talking so fast, I can’t write that fast.]

As she look gloomy she keep quiet,

“……”

 

And before I could write everything to explain everything to her, he suddenly show up from her back,

“Hay brother, how long you gonna make me waiting? Mama will going to mad when we are late. Huh? Hay, are you alright?” – he said seeing both of us on the floor.

(Oh right, I forgot mama asking us to go shopping since there is a big discount near the station on 17:00, need to hurry.) – I thought while taking all the paper & book that already compiled,

*Using sign language,*

<I’m fine. Sorry to make you waiting, I will come.>

 

As I standing up & I try to help her standing too, I give her one last notepad,

[Sorry about the bump, & thanks for helping. I’m in hurry, sorry I must go. See ya.]

(Ah she is become more gloomy, I hope it just my imagination.) – I thought as I leave her behind.

 

As we run trying to catch up with time, I leave her alone in there.

“Hay brother, who is that girl? Is that your girlfriend?” – ask him tempting.

*Using sign language,*

<Don’t be ridiculous, I don’t know her but she is from Drama Club I think.>

*Giggle*,

“Hohoho, this will be an interesting story if I told mama that you have a girlfriend now.” – he said not really listening.

<And it will be more fun if I told Sheila that you looking at another girl.> – I said with little bit annoyed & bored eyes.

“Hay, that is going too far, Brother.” – he said with surprised,

“And that’s also a lie, Sheila won’t believe you for that, haha.” – he said with confident.

<Who know, did you even remember the last thing that happen to you when you made her mad just because a little misunderstanding?> – I said with emotionless face,

<And what is more, just now you were talking about that girl, right? There is more than enough evidence to tell the truth, you know.> – I said with cold eyes & smirk.

“Brother, you are so cold.” – he said with scared & cold sweat.

<You started first.> – I said with bored eyes.

“Urg, okey, okey, but you keep call her ‘that girl’ don’t you know her name?” – ask him confused.

<Nope.>

“The heck? Well, whatever as long as we can buy what we need to.”

<Can’t do, I need to go to Staffroom to give this paper work to the teacher first.> – I said with showing the paper that needed to return.

“Roger that.”

<Ok.>

 

As I speak, just after we give the paper to the teacher, we decide to racing whether to catch the time before the discount time are finish or to know which one of us is the faster. And that is how we leave the school, to get what we need to, just hoping not sold out yet.

 

The time has pass by.

Present Time, 5 day after the actual accident, Monday.

As I walk into gate of the school, I keep thinking for what actual reasons Sheila send her to me. And what make worst is, Mother send me to Uncle place to help him for 5 days straight. Currently he is the owner of famous restaurant & always ask for my help whenever he don’t have enough worker,

(Well it doesn’t matter for me, I got paid anyway.) – I thought,

*Sigh*,

(But honestly, the place was really crowd. I barely have no time to rest) – I thought with sleepy eyes,

(Luckily, I have no duty this morning & since I just got home today morning, I’m still sleepy here.) – I thought.

 

What make worst is actually not how much work to do in the restaurant but that girl. Knowing how Sheila doing thing, she most properly send her to my class every single day. It became awkward to meet her after that ‘Bump’ and gone for 3 days.

 

*Sign Language*

As I open my classroom door & knock before I’m going in, *knock, knock,*

<Good Morning>

“Oh, Good Morning Panda.” – they respond, as everyone notice me.

Little bit confused,

(Arg, why everybody call me Panda now?) – I thought with cold sweat.

As I walk to my seat, on row 4 number 3, one guy greet me,

“Yo, long time not see, Panda.” – he greet with a smile.

*Sigh*,

<Not that long, Blue.> – I said with bored eyes.

 

Little note for this guy.

His name is Ursiblue, his hair maybe brawn, but his eyes & all his staff is blue, that’s why everybody else called him ‘Blue’ even the Teacher.

 

*Sign Language*

<So, what is the clue, Blue?>

“Woe, I’m not the dog who give a mark on something as a clue, you know.” – Blue said little bit annoy.

<Oh come on, give me one clue.> – I said as I put my bag beside my desk.

“You really don’t know about it?” – Blue ask wondering.

<Like I told you, what are you talking about actually?> – more confused.

“Your girlfriend, Echa from Class 2-C, right? She have been waiting for you in front of the class every lunch time even after school, & she only asking one question, ‘is Panda here?’” – Blue trying to explain.

<Girlfriend? I don’t have,, wait, you said her name was Echa? Who?> – I ask with surprised & confused.

*Giggle*,

“Oh don’t be shy, everyone in class think that you are her boyfriend, you know. Especially she keep coming only to looking for you, don’t you think it romantic?”

With a bored eyes,

(No wonder everyone call me Panda now, especially this guy who doesn’t listen to anyone.) – I thought.

“Hai,,hai,, Panda, how about next time we are going to the Park together, my girlfriend and yours with the others too.” – happily suggested.

(Not listening. Not listening. Not Listening.) – I thought as I get annoyed by him.

“Ah but don’t mention her name to Angela, okey. She have been in ‘Bitchy mood’ after hearing those rumors.”

<It’s not like we are dating, we are even barely know each other.>

“But those rumors is true right? I really can’t wait until we can hang out together. So, when did you confess to her & how did you confess to her? You are so good at hiding thing, you know. We will celebrate this for you, when the party & where is the place, come on, don’t forget to invite me, okey.” – he said with exciting.

Together with everyone else in class that listening & watch to their conversation, with bored eyes,

(This guy really not listening.) -_-

 

<Talking about Angela, where she is? She is nowhere to be found?> – I ask Blue while looking around the classroom.

“She have Student Council meeting in other school if I’m not wrong or something like that.” – Blue said trying to remember.

<Thanks.>

“Hai,,hai,, why you are looking for her? Did you miss her? Don’t cheat on your girlfriend, Panda. She is a nice girl, you know. If you compare with Angela, she is better than her.” – Blue said with curious.

<Are you even listening, I told you, we’re not dating. And just try to say that thing in front of her.>

*Scared*,

“Who? Angela? You must be kidding me, Panda.” – Blue said got scared,

“She is such a scary President Student Council & Class Representative whenever she is in serious mode or bad moon. I can’t understand how people can work together with her anyway.” – he explain with scared.

<Hey, don’t you forget that the one you talking about here is her, & the one you just give comment is me.> – I said as I looked at him.

*Giggle*,

“Sorry, sorry, I forget about it,,. Please, don’t tell Angela about that.” – Blue said little bit scared of her.

 

As he try to keep talking even more, the Teacher is coming,

“Okey everyone, back to your seat. We will start the lesson soon. Pao, can you take the map in the library.”

As I standing up,

<Yes, Mrs. Cindy.>

 

‘Pao,’ that is how the Teacher called me. Though it’s not really my name but that’s how the others call me before they changed it to ‘Panda.’ They said it much shorter & easier to call,

(Well they had the point, though.)

 

Everyday is the same. Everyday is almost this way, maybe I was lucky to have friends like them.

 

As I stared at the sky from corridor the windows, sometime I do pity myself. Being different from others, or being unable to say any words in my mind, but how possible I make myself down when I’m not the only one.

 

There are so many people that less than me, but they never give up trying to reach up there. It’s not that easy, it never been easy.

 

So why giving up, if there are someone who trying their best to not, even if there are none, be the first one sound not so bad either.

 

Maybe that’s how I reach where I am, right now. Where I’m stand, with my friends, & with my family.

 

And maybe you have one or two question you did like to ask from me,

One of them is, ‘How all your friends understand ‘Sign Language’?’

 

Teaching.

All is began from there, neighborhood, childhood, even every Teacher I met, they told me,

“You are good at teaching. Why don’t you become a teacher someday?”

 

From then on, one by one they ask me to teach them everything, especially ‘Sign Language.’ When I ask the reason of it, do you know what their answer?

“Because we want to Understand you.”

 

Unbelievable, is not it?

Even I have the same thinking about it. It was just like a sweet dream that never ending.

 

Especially her, the one who is always waiting for me those few days. Never stop surprising me, and unbelievable she willing to doing it.

 

In front of Class 2-A, Lunch Break,

It’s as surprise as I standing in front of my class & seeing what she is trying to say,

 

*Using Sign Language*

<I’m sorry. I’m sorry to call you that way before, will you please forgive me?>

 

There is nothing as surprising as her willingness, but there are also question behind her action,

(For what reason she doing all of this.)

 

 

 

To be Continue.

Note;
This story is fiction.
All persons, groups, places, laws, and names appearing in it have no relation to the real world.

By; Resaid of Story

Not the only one to Give Up

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“How possible I make myself down when I’m not the only one.

There are so many people that less than me, but they never give up trying to reach up there.”

 

Don’t give up just because failure always get your back, the road to success are never easy, even those who are less are trying their best, why you not. Stand up, learn from it, & get go to reach your dream! ^_^

Life is not Easy

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“Life is not that Easy, It Never been Easy.”

 

No one said life is easy, well for those who are above everything seem easy, for those who are average they trying & working hard, and for those who are below, many of them barely survive in bitterness of life, every, single, day.

Appreciate every single things that pass by the day is not wrong, nothing wrong with that. Because in some place, in this world, there are some who don’t have things that you have, begging & survive with it while you just throwing out like it was nothing.

What You Have

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“I’ve Nothing” is not always reference to Negative description, but it only Down to Earth,

since what you have is actually not from your own but your parent.”

 

What your parent have doesn’t mean what you have, what they give as present doesn’t mean you earned by your own. Just try to do something & earn things by your own, there will be a different feeling to it, and it much satisfied than only being given. Though, that’s the parent responsibility, being spoil is not the answer on this case.

Silent Voice

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“Silent Voice doesn’t mean Emotionless”

 

Sometime people make fun of those who are less & different or many of them are doing so. In  front of the door of underworld we’re all the same, what make different in living realm then? Is it funny to make fun of them? Without your knowing they have a harder life than anyone else, they do have a feeling, they do have emotion. Stop bullying them,  love them & support them to reach their dream, because we nothing less than a human. Don’t make it lower by making fun of them.

a Words

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“a Word without Word but to be Word when it mean Words, yet a Words can mean nothing when it a Lie, but to hear the Truth, Word it can Change People Mind.”

 

With one or two words, it enough to break a relationship, friendship, or even family. Whether you lie to hide the truth or tell the truth to avoid misunderstand or even trying to build trust between them, the result will be the same all over again. Those who listen & understand your reason will take as your explanation. and those who not listen or going rampage will only take your reason as an excuse, that’s all.